I have a pattern.  A very hideous pattern.

On Thursday night I spoke to a bit of a blast from the past.  Talking to him, he was drunk at eight at night, was a huge revelation.  I’m not being straight edged when I say he was drunk on a Thursday night.  We’ve all been drunk on a Thursday night as early as 8pm, but he was belligerent.  Belligerent and telling me that he’s getting his life together.  Really?  I thought that’s what you were doing two years ago?

I need to break the cycle.  Get away from these alcoholics with lives that are a mess.  I can honestly say that I don’t have my shit together, but I don’t have children or ex-spouses and I’m not 30+.  There is a big difference between me and them.  The easiest difference is the booze, but I want more than that.

I cannot believe that I can name… FIVE different male influences in my (dating) life that have had a problem with liquor.  I try to be the positive, stable influence in their lives, but WHY?  Someone should be taking care of me!

So I’m putting my foot down, I need someone who may not have it all together, but they have direction and they have a HEALTHY relationship with alcohol.

Simple, right?